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Jul 3, 2015 17:07:21 GMT -5
Post by traumfaengerin on Jul 3, 2015 17:07:21 GMT -5
Hey, it's not that I didn't read your message and in fact I could tell you a lot about it because I do fasting twice a year since a few years now and I think there are really some things most people do wrong. Sorry for teasing you and not writing it down yet. I will definitely do so as soon as I am able tooo. I do not want to start not posting, just because I do not feel "good" at the moment, but it's really like I am checkicn several times a day the forum but I am not motivated enough to post. The last three weeks at my study-town started - this three weeks are full of exam period stress and organisation as I am going abroad for 6 month then. I already had the feeling that I have more often the desire for unhealthy food before the festival, the festival triggered it, and since Monday I am giving it in. As I said, it's not comparable to some other binge times, but I know how fast this can develop if you start once with it. I know, that I just have to be strong and the weird thing is, that I always have the underlying desire to "change everything, and start running and have a nice healthy breakfast" - but it seems like when I am in stressed period this is somehow what I at least "give in" for myself - as I do not give in anything else (free time, cooking, spors, relax, etc.).
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Jul 4, 2015 1:53:48 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 4, 2015 1:53:48 GMT -5
I'm here! unable to put all my thoughts or answers into words, so I fell silent My eating since I wrote lastly has been rather unspectacular and normal. Anyhow I'm sad and angry about my eating disorder history, but it's impossible to change the past, so let´s move forward and use the day to walk away from all this - and it's entirely in our hands, to decide or sometimes try out, what is helpful and what supports recovery! We are capable of doing this !
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Jul 6, 2015 0:51:47 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 6, 2015 0:51:47 GMT -5
good morning everyone! Have a sunny recovery day and pat yourself on the back for all the great work you have already done
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Jul 7, 2015 14:10:12 GMT -5
Post by revondex on Jul 7, 2015 14:10:12 GMT -5
hey @all, thanks for responding. Don´t worry, Laura. I didn't mean it that way! If you are busy atm, then take your time but watch yourself a bit, too:) I hope you are doing well in your recovery. You are going abroad soon?? That's awesome! Where to? I spent 9 months in Central America:)) Thinking back then I had been so deep in my ED, little did I know about BoB... Anyway, my apetite is still absent somehow, but I am not trying to totally fast. In fact I'm watching my macros and micros while tracking it on cronometer (not counting cals!!). Figured out, if I fulfill all my needs of vitamins and mineral nutrients chances are small to end up binging. Maybe you should try, bc if you are craving unhealthy food, you are probably lacking in certain micro nutrients. @lily: you are such a sweet heart! Always giving that last motivation boost xD lets sum it up, no binge since I can't even remember - weird, huh? I need so little to be satisfied, but that's ok - it#s hot and liquids are the way to go. Moreover I finally get my stuff together, like no food related action^^ -not complaining at all- HUGE HUGSXXX Dani
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Jul 10, 2015 5:23:02 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 10, 2015 5:23:02 GMT -5
Wrote a long text yesterday, not sure whether I should post it here. Think about leaving this forum, for some time or completely or on the other hand increase my posts again up to daily short messages. Not yet clear about what to do. Anyway, have a nice day
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Jul 11, 2015 1:44:54 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 11, 2015 1:44:54 GMT -5
hey everyone Chose the daily messages until I will make a new decision. There is only one way to end a bad habit: end the bad habit. Go for the smile tomorrow!
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Jul 11, 2015 16:51:39 GMT -5
Post by traumfaengerin on Jul 11, 2015 16:51:39 GMT -5
I am very happy you decided that way - I'd be interested in your thoughs, so if you feel okay with sharing them.. I am still in my exam period and nearly 24hours/day working. As I said, this is not a good time for my eating habits - the difference is that this time i have the feeling of really knowing that I am deciding to eat badly at the moment and not just like a "bad excuse" and feel like I have the feeling of changing it again after that exam period (and this is my final one ). I am going to share my thoughts about that longer when I have the time... on the 23rd everything is over Revondex, I am going 3 month for an intership to beautiful wales and after that 3 month to even more beautiful Colombia Otherwise I already would have asked you if we should meet, as i can drive for free with my semesterticket to Braunschweig Even though I may not reply, I am always with you and not forgetting about this topic. I really want to proof it myself, but sometimes it needs the right time and that's okay
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Jul 12, 2015 0:41:21 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 12, 2015 0:41:21 GMT -5
good morning having a cold today my exam period starts when yours is just ending.. don´t know what I fear more, learning or failing or resisting urges or binging. okay, no more poor me storys, I will be superwoman for today^^, maybe it won´t be as hard have a nice day, I keep my fingers crossed
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Jul 12, 2015 18:28:02 GMT -5
Post by traumfaengerin on Jul 12, 2015 18:28:02 GMT -5
haha.. "I will be superwoman for today"... should be the story of our lives have a nice start into the week:)
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Jul 13, 2015 1:10:51 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 13, 2015 1:10:51 GMT -5
superwoman in tears yesterday, but did not binge I benefit from an even stonger 'no' for the hard days, I can´t postpone it, it causes so much damage and makes everything so much worse for me. Okay, let´s go! See you tomorrow!
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Jul 14, 2015 0:38:57 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 14, 2015 0:38:57 GMT -5
Glad and grateful that I rode the urges out yesterday and have the possibility to start this new day without regretting my eating. Here I am to tackle it hope you all are doing well!
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Jul 14, 2015 10:53:45 GMT -5
Post by traumfaengerin on Jul 14, 2015 10:53:45 GMT -5
Makes me sad to heart, that you are struggling so much currently. But we all know there will be times when it will feel easier for you again und you can be more proud of you again. You have to trust me.. turst yourself I am very glad with the decision of letting my eat whatever I want and whenever I want and not to feel bad about it until I am out of the biggest stress. Because I know this is the last real exam period I will have and because it has a "final date" I can look forward to, it feels okay Today we're going to go eat Tarte Flambee with my best friends to say farewell, yummy
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Jul 15, 2015 0:50:50 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 15, 2015 0:50:50 GMT -5
Thanks to myself, I did not binge yesterday, so I could go to bed and wake up with all my troubles but without the horrible aftermath of a binge. I get your point, it´s not downright recommended to change habits like smoking or something like that in an especially stressful time, and as Kathryn said in her last blog, simply do your best at that times. If you feel okay, don´t feel a need to feel bad. For me it´s just not like following an unwanted bad habit for some weeks more or less, it´s about seriously causing damage on top of serious trouble. And it´s much easier to say no and not to binge than to live with all the pain it causes. That´s why I will continue not to give any attention to those voices, that try to pull me back. Hope you enjoyed your evening with your friends! Let´s go and have fun! See you tomorrow! dani: time for an update, missy
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Jul 15, 2015 2:30:08 GMT -5
Post by traumfaengerin on Jul 15, 2015 2:30:08 GMT -5
It was a wonderwonderwonderful emotional evening! I will write longer soon. Have a good day *giving you some strengh*
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Jul 16, 2015 1:04:44 GMT -5
Post by Lily on Jul 16, 2015 1:04:44 GMT -5
No binge yesterday! Thanks for the *strength*! It´s nice to hear you enjoyed your evening! A little curious whether someone else is reading this thread On with the show, see you tomorrow!
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