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Post by nicky on Mar 1, 2014 13:47:56 GMT -5
Today, March 1st, is a new beginning for me. I read BOB for the third time and I feel that now I am ready for recovery as described by Kathryn. My last binge was two days ago and, as described in another tread, it did not feel good. I think because I was aware of the fact that I willingly engaged in this' binge.
This thread is for me and for anybody who's interested in my thoughts and progress.
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Post by nicky on Mar 2, 2014 7:06:19 GMT -5
Yesterday was a binge free day. I did not have any urges, so I found it relatively easy not to binge. I did eat according to my own meal plan, but the meals and snacks I ate were nice and satisfying. Tomorrow I am starting work again, after a week's break. I get urges to binge when I am not able to follow my work routines, so next week will be a challenge! What I should keep in mind: food/eating/bingeing does not solve any problems nor does it release any stress! In order to solve problems I have to come up with solutions, in case of stress I have to find ways to unwind or relax!
The app ' Before I eat' is a good way to deal with an urge at work, so I must not forget to use it!
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Post by nicky on Mar 2, 2014 15:07:21 GMT -5
March 2nd: success! Didn't binge today, ate some nice snacks today and had a lovely dinner. Feel satisfied and nourished. Feels good. Won't feel good tomorrow morning if I binge now, so I won't!
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Post by nicky on Mar 3, 2014 1:55:07 GMT -5
Two days have gone by and I haven't binged. I haven't had strong urges to binge either, so perhaps it is not really that spectacular.
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Post by nicky on Mar 3, 2014 14:14:24 GMT -5
Just had dinner, am on my own and I do have a little urge. Drank my cup of tea and had a small piece of chocolate, which I ate slowly. I am full, I am satisfied, I have a small bowl of fruit and some plain yoghurt waiting for me which I will eat later tonight. No need to binge and just reminded myself how horrible I will feel tomorrow morning! I am sure the urge will go away, so I will just ride it out! My legs will not walk to the kitchen or cupboard or fridge tonight! I am in charge.... and so are you dear reader! Sleep tight! Nicky x
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Post by nicky on Mar 4, 2014 12:35:17 GMT -5
Yesterday was another binge free day... Feel really happy about it! Today so far so good. Have to cook my own dinner tonight, husband is not at home, so little bit challenging for me. Tomorrow having dinner out with a friend; another challenge, especially since I have also planned not to go the the gym tomorrow! But that's tomorrow, first I have to deal with the rest of today! I'm going to make my dinner now.... Mushroom, runner beans and potato frittata, toasted spelt bread and a salad. Nice and easy, tasty and healthy!
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Post by nicky on Mar 5, 2014 2:32:42 GMT -5
March 4 done and dusted!! Did what I planned to do and had my dinner which was lovely. Had no urges to binge afterwards! Today is a different matter. Feel a little uneasy about dinner out tonight, but so far no urges. I am going to enjoy the meal and the company and am now telling myself there is no need to be nervous... it's only food.
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Post by nicky on Mar 5, 2014 9:14:15 GMT -5
Just had big strong urge, ate a few nuts and raisins and decided that I was simply hungry. Urge has gone....yeah!
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Post by nicky on Mar 6, 2014 2:19:23 GMT -5
Went out for a meal last night, had a glass of wine with the food, no dessert because I was full from the main course. Ate an orange and some yoghurt when I came home (my normal desert which I ate out of habit) but did not feel bad about it. Had NO URGES to binge!!! (I was really surprised because normally after a dinner out I always have urges.) I did not go to the gym yesterday and the combination of a dinner out and no gym was normally a reason to binge (day ruined, new start tomorrow bla bla bla). This morning woke up feeling great, confident and happy!
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Post by nicky on Mar 7, 2014 1:51:26 GMT -5
Last night (Thursday) I would normally have binged: my husband was home very late from work and he could not cook our dinner. I was late too, so I could not cook our planned dinner either! Had to rush to the shop to get some veggies and tofu to make myself a stir fry which I ate with some plain white rice and peanutsauce. It is one of my 'home alone recipes' and I always enjoy it very much. However, in the past it led to a binge so I had to make sure it would not happen this time. The urge arose and I recognized it for what it was. After dinner I had a cup of tea and a piece of chocolate. I was ready to devour the whole bar, but managed to shut out the animal brain and the AV again. Eventually the urges went away. Woke up this morning feeling very happy with myself!
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Post by nicky on Mar 8, 2014 9:41:39 GMT -5
Friday 7th March was another binge free day!
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Post by Nicky forgot to login on Mar 8, 2014 11:39:44 GMT -5
I just had a binge! It just happened! Feel pretty bad about it because I wanted March to be binge free, but unfortunately that is not going to happen now. I managed to stop after an hour of mindlessly eating chocolates, yoghurt and sweets and now it's time to analyse. Today was messy: I had to go for the weekly shop (normally my husband does that) I had my morning snack later because of it. Lunch wasn't very special and therefore not that nice. Dinner is going to be salad and fish, something I don't often eat (the fish!) and which I am not too keen on. Oh... And I made a nice dessert for later with cream and fresh strawberries.... Anxiety about a the fish and fatty treat perhaps?
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Post by nicky on Mar 8, 2014 11:52:45 GMT -5
The previous entry is mine, I forgot to log in. By the time I realized, I'd typed the text and I couldn't work out how to copy paste on this iPad, so I made up the guest name.
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Post by nicky on Mar 9, 2014 7:01:34 GMT -5
What a miserable state of affairs yesterday! I still cannot get over it! Why on earth did I binge? Must remember not to restrict today, or else I will continue bingeing, that much I know.
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Post by nicky on Mar 10, 2014 3:57:28 GMT -5
Yesterday went well, after a normal session at the gym I came home and I did not binge end I did not restrict. Ate a nice lunch and dinner, had a couple of snack and enjoyed the sunshine (warmest March 10 on record!). The binge was out of my system because it wasn't a really big one. Went to bed last night feeling good and happy. Lessons to be learned: don't restrict, try to live with 'messy' schedules... they are part of life!
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