poem/speech for resisting the urges

[rivvy]

i wrote a little speech that helps me to not give in when the urge
to binge intrudes into my mind and i have to say no.
maybe it can help someone else here

what an urge feels like-

it is like someone standing over you with a gun

to your head giving you a choice question:

"why don't you binge right now?"

and if your answer is no, they threaten to shoot...

they plead and tempt,

"but this will be the last time, promise"

and you still say no, so they cock the pistol...

you are scared, distressed enough to give in...
you think about the relief that it will bring.

you think about the pistol being put down,

but only until the next time...

because they would know you give in easily.

so you say no.

"come on, you know you want to, think of how good it will feel"

and you think of the relief, but you know

your true self doesnt want it really.

and now they're getting mad...

because they know they can't shoot you.

they are a part of you, and they can distress you,

but they cannot make you act.

so there are more and more temptations, lies.

and more fear, more distress.

but they cannot force you to act,

and if you are strong enough, they have to give up.

and they learn,

they learn after a while that they cannot push you.

that you will not give in to threats or demands.

and then there is only one option.

to let you free.

[lilly]

hi rivvy,
thanks for sharing that. I think it's so fascinating to see how different people see their urges. No question that the thing we all have in common is how strong those dang things are...
For me, the urges are like a slick sales pitch by a voice that has had training in my psychology and then tailors the pitch to my weaknesses. I've been trying to re-cast my salesman as a little monkey who gestures and points and jumps up and down and pulls my hand toward the food. Much easier to dismiss a monkey :-)
I wonder if other people on this forum have used different images...

[Belle]

I love the monkey idea! Thank you for the inspiration, gonna try this week :-)

[meemom77]

Thanks for the poem, I feel the exact same way!