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[powerless]

Good Morning all!! It is a new day!! a new day with new goals, new hopes, new dreams, new resolve, new will power, new stress, new cravings, new food, new desires, new fails.


That sentence is pretty much how my days goes. I start out strong and as the day (sentence)goes on, it goes down hill and I go to bed defeated and with a stomach ache and headache.


I have been bingeing for 23 years!! I am so desperate to figure this out and to stop it. The madness of BED is so ridiculous. It makes no sense. WHY do I eat when I am not hungry?? WHY do I eat so much I literally make myself sick? WHY cant I stop?? It is total madness! I don't understand it so how the heck could I expect anyone I love to understand it?? I am so frustrated right now and I feel so defeated right now. I have been on a 3 day binge spree.


Last fall I was on a medication that helped sooooo much with the BED but because of some annoying side effects and the fact that the med worked and gave me a false sense of control I got off of it. Welll it has pretty much been a 2 1/2 month long on again off again binge fest. I have gained about 20 pounds in that time. NOT OK!! So today I am going to suck it up, restart my med and deal with the annoying side effect (extreme dry mouth).  Hopefully with the med I will be able to do the work needed to start to recover and 1 day not need the meds. I have ordered the book and the work book, hoping and praying it may be my ticket to recovery.


I am glad to be here and look forward to participating in the fourm

[lilly]

Welcome! I'm new here too and can definitely relate to your story. I have been binge-eating for more than 30 years! I have found that the BoB approach has meant I have had to make a total change in my mindset: recognizing that I am capable of dismissing binge urges. As long as I let go of the need to control any other aspect of my eating (I have committed to one year without any other active changes to my eating) I have been able to stop binging completely. It is still early for me, but I already see a difference in the strength and frequency of binge urges and as of today I am 10 weeks binge-free. There is nothing perfect about my process, and I haven't lost any weight yet, but I will deal with that when I am certain that binging is out of my life for good.
I hope the book shows you how strong you really are and that you feel powerful instead of powerless!

[powerless]

Feb 16, 2016 8:18:52 GMT -5 lilly said:

Welcome! I'm new here too and can definitely relate to your story. I have been binge-eating for more than 30 years! I have found that the BoB approach has meant I have had to make a total change in my mindset: recognizing that I am capable of dismissing binge urges. As long as I let go of the need to control any other aspect of my eating (I have committed to one year without any other active changes to my eating) I have been able to stop binging completely. It is still early for me, but I already see a difference in the strength and frequency of binge urges and as of today I am 10 weeks binge-free. There is nothing perfect about my process, and I haven't lost any weight yet, but I will deal with that when I am certain that binging is out of my life for good.
I hope the book shows you how strong you really are and that you feel powerful instead of powerless!

HI lilly!! Thanks so much for that!!! I just ordered my books this morning and cant wait for them to get here (Thursday)! CONTROL!! WOO that is a big thing in my life! I want to control EVERYTHING!! Yet I feel soooooo out of control with the bingeing! I feel as though it is the ONLY thing I CANT control! This will be an interesting journey that I pray works!!